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Monday, August 29, 2011 @ 12:29 AM
 The same damn thing. Thought it will not happen this time, But i guess im wrong. Even though sometimes i cant see it coming, i have no choice but to let it happen. Maybe everything happens for a reason. No, i aint gonna fight back and all. Just gonna ignore the bullshits that gonna happen to me. Everyone have haters right? and i cant do anything to change the fact. Gosh, im so fucking tired of everything. So tired of getting insult, get bitch about after a long relationship. Yeah, i guess it is like a routine for some people to do that. i respect them, maybe they just wanna move on or something? Or maybe they are just like that. Hmm, not really sure yeah. Haish, do whatever you want to make you happy dude. I gave up. Aint gonna bitch about you and all. i know it just gonna make things worse you see. So yeah, lets just see from far, who is gonna be there for me or who is gonna join the fun. Nlevel is so fucking near and i dont want to mess things up. The only thing i could do to save myself from getting hurt and all is to ignore those bullshits. I guess i am used to the same damn silly thing until i have nothing more to say bout it. Life is unfair. I know right? Hmmm, till here. bye :) Labels: Dying. History repeating itself again?
Saturday, August 27, 2011 @ 2:07 AM
 hola everyone. :) Actually i didnt really know what to update anw. Hmm, i dont know why, but life is suckish nowadays. Gosh, Im so tired of the same damn thing. I think i've been saying this over and over again. im so fucking exhausted. Nlevel papers in few more days. I cant really concentrate cause alot of things going on in my way. Haisssh, too many problems until i accidently burst out into my freaking tears yesterday. Thought i could keep this on, being strong like how i used to, but i realise i cant, when especially is bout you. Everything is soooo fucking messy. Gosh, i dont wanna talk bout this anymore, aint gonna spoil my mood again. okay, i keep listening to here come goodbye~ haha. haha, kay dahbye! Haisssh, nohing much to say anymore. byeeeee!
Streess.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011 @ 12:17 AM
  hello everyone. Ouh man, so long never update blog. :) Since, im not schooling as i dont have any papers today, im gonna update this dusty blog. hehe. im so freaking stress. Argh, 19 more days to my first Nlevel paper, I bet i cant enjoy my HariRaya too much. Damn, i wish i still can go out with my friends for outing mann~ Insyallah can lah. Hmm, So basically, I have already started studying a lil bit. But Not to the extend that i study everyday lah. Only when i have the mood :) huhu! Can like that uh.. Hmm~. & I just wanna say, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FRIEND NABILAH BTE ABDUL RAHIM!  Hello nabilah! :) Anw, happy belated birthday yerrr :D By the way, so so sorry that we couldnt celebrate with you on that day itself, Cause you need to go home. One day, we definitely gonna make you a celebration. I know you kind of disappointed, But we dont have anymore choices. Really really sorry kayyy? haha, and and and, Birthday gift kau hmmm, aku kene delay uh. Since ramadhan i never get $$ :( Sorry kayyy! Just be happy with what you got there! SenyumSenyum Selalu :) BestOfLuck for your Nlevel.. like how many more days? 19 right? Shit, Start studying! Dont play play :) hehhehehe. lastly, Sorry for everything that i've down towards you. Love ya like a love song baby~ Once again, happy belated birthday <3 Till here :) Buabyeeeeeeee! <3 Happy moments.
Monday, May 23, 2011 @ 1:34 AM
 Happy gay day :) Hmm, basically today its the 23rd of may and yeah its gay day! Hahaha I Fucking miss guiding so much and my gay friends of course. Yes, we are gay, i mean not that gay gay but yeah, Just gay :) Haha, Yeah, i forgot today its the day because lots of things going thru my mind. Yeahh, everyone have their own problem right? Hmm, I just wanna sit with you girls during recess one day and share our dirty lil secret, I fucking miss you people :( Its been a long time since i share things with you girls and laughing like theres tomorrow. haissss :( Ouh damn~ I hope, This friday after the interview, We go out somewheree yawwwww~ Kay, Thats it, everyone is busy with their own things, yeah me too actually :/  Syanalifaaz? Hah, Hah, Honestly, Its weird typing that name already. I dont know why its just weird. Maybe it doesnt even exist anymore? :/ Im not sure yeah. But, do you girls remember when is the last outing we went out together? The seven of us? I guess you girls dont even remember, cause honestly, i dont :/ Seriously, I dont know why, Not to over react or something, Its just too weird to hang out with you people. I know you girls feels the same way too right? The awkwardess? Haisssh, I dont know what else to say. Sometimes, if i wanna tweet something referring to one person, The other person terase, and everything caused misunderstanding. Yeah, Maybe some part of it is my fault. To tweet what im not supposed to tweet. But then, Its just my feeling right? If you think my actions was wrong, i apologise. I dont know what else to say, but i know i put in some efforts to talk to you girls but nothing work out. Kay then fine, Maybe its not the right time ehh? o.O To that someone ; I guess you know who im referring to right? yes its you, If you trease, then maybe its you? Hah, I dont know what else to do with you? To talk, to text or to what? Ive tried yaknow? But whats wrong? I dont know what i did wrong but why out of sudden you gave me that attitude? Damn, Im just fucking lost sia. Clueless of whats going on, I thought we are cool that friday but maybe its just.... I dont know :( Im not sure yeahhh, haissh. Thought you ganna treat me the same? Its weird to see you in class and we, not talking to each other? Weird much? Maybe its not the right time for us to be back again, like how we used to eh? Time heals, So i guess im just gonna follow the flow. I apologise for my mistakes if thers any. Im sorry. I dont know why, I fucking cried cause of memories. The Past with my friends and stuff. I know im not supposed to look back, but i just did. I fucking miss my past, eventhough some part is a lil bit complicating. But yahhh. And now my family was being a bitch. Hate this moments, I hope i can enjoy much more in the future without getting hurt. Enough is enough, i had enough from getting hurt. Thanks for making my life miserable. Fugg my life seriously. Ouh manxzzz, Life like this. I miss my happy moments :( Yes, I can be happy in the outside, but no one know what im feeling deep down my heart. Labels: Fugg Unexpected love .
Wednesday, May 18, 2011 @ 5:05 AM
     SENTOSA OUTING! ♥ Halo people out there! :) Hehehehe. Kay basically, I went out with Lee Ana, Qael, Syafiq And ameer On 17th of May! Wohooo, Eventhough only the 5 of us, Its cool :) Really, It was damn awesome shitxzzzzzzz. Everyone was in the mood that time. Haha, But actually it was kind of slow and easy outing but yeahh, Not bad ya? Hahaha, Okay fine, I dont know how to describe more aboutt the outing but its tiring too yaknow. Swim here and there, Sancastle, take pics only a lil and eat my awesome Mac spicy with cheeeese :) Yum yummy! Kay, wait, before you wanna think differently, Hmm, that guy up there is just my Special Friend kay? Like bestfriend, chey wahhhh~ Nothing is going on between us Only that he Confessed to meh, Ouh dammm~ Paisey much? Jengjengjeng~ Kay, And the truth or dare inside the sea was funny! Hahah, lazy wanna elaborate ya, But .... nehmind :/ And yeah, im not sure about my feelings, really! I dont know why? Why uh? Like weird and just so awkward. I never expect us to come this far. But yeah, We are just bestfriend♥ Awwww~ Kay dah tu jer, I dont know what else to say . hahaha Kay bye bye :) Im your awesome pikachu! ♥ Labels: lets just follow the flow. Love or like.
Sunday, May 8, 2011 @ 6:50 PM
 This picture was taken by Qael :)  Dear all, So people. I dont know how to start this post. Basically, Im not sure what im feeling right now. Lilke seriously. I dont know is this really the feelings. Like from a lil crush to a lil Like to a lil Love? Hmm, Maybe or maybe not? Im not sure of my fucking feeling dammit. Seriously, I have this fucking fear. Fuck this fear away dammit. Im scared to fall in love again, To a different person, different characters , different understanding. Im fucking scared it is gonna be like the past, Hurting my all over again. Maybe i havent trust this person yet? hmm, Im not sure, Seriously this feeling is killing meh :( Why is my past gonna do with my future? O.o Like i think non stop, Is it gonna be the same? Im not sure, And i aint gonna try. Err, maybe i will try but not now i guess. And yeah, He is on my mind a single time and i keep him hanging. haha, kay thats bad. But yah, Hehe. And nowadays, people dont need to ask a relationship, it comes naturally. Now i understand what leeyana told me, Go with the flow and no need for the freaking stead. Yeah, true that. Its easier that way. And yah, Gonna study with My classmates later on :)) Bye :D
Im not alone i have you right beside me.
Sunday, May 1, 2011 @ 5:07 AM
 I wish one day, someone will come along and pick me up from the mess im in.  Anyong people :) Alhamdurillah everything is back to the way it was. Im free from it~ yeah, I took the first step to solve everything. Thought i couldn't make it, but i did it. I settled the problem with him and my friends. No more worry, i finally found my happiness back :) Hmm, but i cant communicate with him this time, i dont know why? Just this Fear in me. Maybe? But sometimes, theres something in me that really wanna talk to him. But i will always stopped myself for thinking that way. And yes, If you people ask me who im contacting right now, Let's just say hmm, Only one? Qael only. Cause i decided to stop the rest. The rest is a douche. Chey, macam paham. Maybe this is just a waste of my time. But maybe only this one, i decided not to let him go. Yeah, i met him quite a number of time. Almost My clique members have met him and they said we're compatible. what the hell? Haha, Lee said i should not let him go, maybe he's the one that pick me up from the mess im in? macam paham~ Jngjengjeng. Maybe, should not put any hopes. Haha, Giler sia akuuuu. Ouh yeahh, I studied alot these days, and I.AM.FUCKING.STRESS. Can i cry cause of studies? :'( Im stresssssssssssss. haisssssh. And yeah, tomorrow gonna study with Qael! , Ateeqah and amirul :) Hehehe :) yeah, thats all. Happy living your live people! :D Labels: Im happy once again. |
